People and Feelings. Sucks right.

I don't know. Maybe I just changed to someone who I could never thought of before. It all happened so fast. The ups and downs. They tore me apart, they put me back. They let me down, they lift me up. Everything keeps changing.

One thing for sure, when we grow up, it is a lie if we don't feel it and it is a norm for us to have that feeling, you know that love thingy. It's good actually, it shows that you're normal. But the matter is, how you put it (the feeling) on  a right  & suitable place.

Some might say, "I'm forever alone, no one wants me".. Maybe some might say,"Ahhh please find me one boy, I feel lonely."

But do we realize, the emptiness, the loneliness that we feel could only be filled with ibadaat towards our God, Allah SWT? 

Yes, all the temptation of this word is everywhere. When you sit down and take a look around you, you found that every one around you has boyfriend, and you're like bitching yourself right there, and cursing yourself...."WHY AM I ALONE?"

NO. You are not. Be patient. Like people always do say, "Single? Don't worry, God is writing your love story" For me, YES it is true. Be patient, the time will come, maybe you'll get someone who is nicer and can take a good care of you more than you could ever imagine.And that guy is totally much much better than the guy who you saw with your friend.

Who knows right? The most important thing is, we've got to make du'a. Always and always. Don't underestimate the power of du'a as a stone also can be soft cause of du'a. Insha Allah.

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CRUSH. Ahahaha. Well, bohong sangat kalau dalam hidup ni, kita takda perasaan kat siapa-siapa. Like,
"Omg ths guy is something: "Awwww, he 's so soft spoken" yadda yaddaaaa...

Right? And when seeing that someone who you have crush on flirting with other people, you'll go like "WHAAAAAT? NOOOOOO!" 

Yes, I currently have crush on someone. And I do hope he'll realize, you know, like, some appreciation I guess? All the efforts that I have put should be rewarded right? I would tell you that I adore you so much but I couldn't. First. no guts. Second, I am afraid you might hate me after that.

And guess what? Bearing all these thing by ourselves, is UNBEARABLE. IT HURTS MOST OF THE TIME. AND ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW YOUR LIFE IS. 

 How to cure it? YES, by reciting Quran, pray a lot, qiyam, zikir. No joke. They HEAL!

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Don't judge me, I am a human being. I have feelings though I once condemned that I would not fall in love with anyone. And yeah, who can make it certainly happen the exact way?

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I would say that I love you one day. With all my heart. One day, once I am halal for you. Insha Allah.. Ameen.