A rambling post. Read it if you want.

So, semester two just started three days ago. The timetable is so packed and full which classes all start from 7 AM and end at 4 PM. What Im gonna say is I just hope that this semester will be nicer and more productive than before. This may sound too typical but yeah, I do hope this. Bukan apa, last semester aku asyik nak demotivate ja. Kali ni, aku rasa tak mau dah la perangai lagu tu. I mean like, demotivation is something that will just ruin your life & will make you even feel down. And tiring. Kan? Penat kan asyik dok demotivate ja. Negative vibes kot weh. Memang ah akan memberi signal yang tak berapa sihat utk hidup. So, yeah, aku janji pada diri aku kali ni, even I am so damn tired or apa-apa perasaan yang negative, I m gonna suck it up like a sir. Haha. Idk what I mean by like a sir. But one thing is, like a sir means classy and cool. Itu prinsip aku. Ahaha.

Okay, aku tulis blog macam bajet ada orang nak baca. Lulz gila aku. 

So yeah, selama masuk 4 hari kelas berjalan, hari 1 - 3 aku rasa dah yang aku boleh istiqamah dengan azam aku nak keep being positive, tup tup mai hari ni aku rasa penat yang amat; rasa nak tidoq, rasa tkmau fokus dan rasa macam nak curse everything out. Tahu tak kenapa. Nak tahu? Hah, meh la baca lagi tulisan aku di bawah ini. Teruskan membaca.

Air kat rumah aku still sucks. Hari tu cuti semester, tuan rumah aku ada dah panggil plumber mai pebetui apa yg tak pebetui. Awai2 aku sampai hari tu okay ja, mai hari 3 aku dok syok dengan kelas, air buat masalah pulak. Dush, macam asdfghjkl lagi. 

"Alah, masalah air ja pun, chillax ah. Yg tu pun nak emo. Duh,"

Wei, tahu dak bila air bermasalah segala akitiviti yang lain pun akan bermasalah jugak?! Ah man, mohonlah mengerti.  Bila air takda tahu tak aktiviti membasuh baju jua terbantut? Dan tahukan anda nak berak kencing pun payah? Nak apa lagi... Hah! Semua semua yang berkaitan dengan air lah. 

Aku nak rant on pun jadi malas sebab aku tahu jarang ada orang yang nak paham dengan masalah aku. Kalau paham pun apa boleh  buat, cuma nasihatkan supaya diri ini bersabar ja lah. But yeah, still I need words from sahabat-sahabat cause this is how I can stay strong and positive so do stay please don't ever leave me. Ewaaah.

Cara aku tulis post pun macam tak da pola tapi peduli apa pulak aku, nak jadi satu cerita pulak aku nak lakarkan pola cerita sebelum aku tulis post. Makan masa lagi, buang tenaga lagi. Aku menulis bila masa aku nak dan perlu ja. Mostly bila masa aku rasa macam seteres. Ahah, yeah. Ampunlah, mungkin kalau ada di antara kalian hendak cari motivasi di laman ini, mungkin anda tersilap laman. Sila alt F4. Sekian terima kasih, harap maklum.

Kedua, aku rasa macam nak cerita pasal...hm. Pasal irrelevance yang usually berlaku kat sini. Dulu aku rasa aku tak mampu nak tanggung ketidakrelevan yang macam-macam kat sini. Bila aku dah habis satu sem, tiba- tiba aku rasa macam kagum pulak dengan diri aku sendiri. Lol. Bukan nak riya' weh but people cmon hampa cuba mai dok sini, tak semua boleh tahan kot! 

Memang masa aku dalam sem 1 kerap kali aku terfikir apa betul aku ni ambil degree kat sini and yadda yadda, kerap kali aku terfikir aku nak stop studying here but many things and people prevented me from doing so. 

Ketiga, aku rasa macam nak cerita pasal... aha, pasal diri aku yang sekarang ni mungkin tak sama macam dulu. Sorry guys if you found me so different right now compared to before. Mungkin dulu, ada sesetengah daripada hampa semua ada yg mungkin jadikan aku sebagai role model dalam sesuatu (eceh perasan) (tak, sungguh ni). Cause bukan apa, cause sometimes I feel like I am letting some other people down, frustrated with myself.

Aku tak se"solehah" yg lain, that you guys can find like Aisyah Syakirah or Diana Bahrin or Angel Pakai Gucci's owner or sesiapa ja lah. Idk why and what turned me to this current me. Aku cakap terus terang eh. Mungkin aku tak pakai tudung bulat bidang 60 like you expect some lepasan sekolah agama and some girls who are or were involving in kerja da'wah. I'm still wearing a hijab of course cuma, not that big. Still covering what I need to cover. Aku pakai sneakers pi kelas. Selalu berseluar dan  prefer to wear shirts. And nowadays I prefer to wear shawl or pashmina. And once again I reckon, I'm still covering what I need to cover.

Kenapa aku cakap macam ni. Aku tak mahu org yg pandang aku selama ini berubah pandangan. I mean like I am still me. Maybe I become more me now. And ada juga sesetengah insan yang kenal aku said that I'm different. Cause appearance aku macam 'ranggi' mungkin but no guys, just because people who are "islamic" dont wear like I do doesn't mean that I am not good. I am not saying that I am an angel or what but cmon guys, islamik tak semestinya terletak pada pakaian. Tak semestinya hanya yang berserban, tudung bulat bidang 60, berjubah atau yang berpurdah yang berpeluang mendapat title "baik" in the aspect of Islam.

As long as the outfit is according to what Allah had said, whats wrong with wearing it right? Modesty pun penting juga dalam prinsip Islam kan? And why do you have to make it hard? Kalau rasa selesa utk pakai tudung turki, atau syria atau pashmina with sneakers to cover yr aurah, go on lah kan. As long as the guidelines are there right?

Just saying guys. I want to make things clear. That's all. Alala. Apa aku merepek ni, pointless as usual. 

That's all I think. Salah silap harap dimaafi. Islam is for all. Moga kita husnul khatimah menjadi milik kita. Salaam alaik.

Outro - Adik Remaja by Raihan.

"Nothing Good Happens After 2"

This is one of the episodes in How I Met Your Mother Season 1. Well, I've been watching this series ever since it was being on air on Star World but I was not that fanatic like you know, the one who must not miss the episode every time it is on the TV. I watched it when I was free. That's all. What I like about this series is the scripts that they use do make sense. Especially when it comes to Barney Stinson's part. Though ironically, Neil Patrick Harris is not that inspiring outside the studio. ( you know what I mean)

To be surprised, most words that they use in the scripts are relatable to our lives. One of them is "When I am sad, I stop being sad, and be awesome instead." I know right? It does sound motivating and cool. Ahaha. And another one is, "Happiness is not that hard. People make it hard."

Regardless the censored parts, HIMYM is very fascinating to be watched. After almost 8 years watching it, we still don't know who the mother is. Haha. Ted Mosby, you're cunning. You banged almost every girl in New York then only you found the most perfect girl who you can make her as your wife, huh? Tsk tsk. Pity those girls. :p Lol emotional pulak aku.

Well. We put aside this awesomeness about HIMYM for a while. Now what I want to point out here is nothing good happens after 2. Yes. Been there, done that. Allah had made night time for us to sleep and to relax ourselves from being stressed out. Kalau yang studi tu lain cerita ah. What I mean here is no good decision (yang related dengan perasaan) will be made at this hour. 

Perasan tak. Idk maybe it is only me who feels this way. But wild thoughts of mind tend to wander at this hour and I always put myself at a bad mood. Eventually, I likely spend my time thinking this and that. Wondering what would happen if I didn't make that step, what would happen if I didn't choose this way yadda yadda. You know all that stuffs which may sicken you when you think of em. 

Yeah. Indeed. Nothing good happens after 2 UNLESS you spend your time to spill everything in your sujood, zikr. Yeap. Luahkan segala keresahan kepada Dia. The one who understands you every single time. He made us of course He will take care of us as long as you still believe and have faith in Him.

Post ini sebenarnya pesanan kepada diri aku sendiri ah. Aku tak tuju kat siapa-siapa. Melainkan ada yang tengah baca ni nak ambil teladan dan pedoman, terserah. Motif utama aku tulis ni memang untuk diri aku. Perkongsian dari aku yang mungkin sedikit sebanyak akan memberi manfaat kepada anda semua. Barangkali.

Pesanan buat diri. Don't think too much till you soak yourself in an ocean of wonders and negativities. It is uncool and you're going to be depressed all the time. And you're gonna make nothing good. Instead you're going to disappoint your own self and boleh jadi orang lain pun akan naik menyampah dengan diri hang. (ni satu lagi masalah aku, suka fikir apa yang akan orang fikir terhadap aku) 

Pesanan buat diri aku lagi. Kalau rasa unbearable sangat, bentang tikar sejadah. Ambil wudhu', pakai telekung and start praying. You know kan no one can satisfy you that much except Allah. Kita takkan pernah forever alone. And you know kan, benda yang kita desire sangat tu boleh kita mohon kepada Allah. Hati itu kan milik Allah. Allah yang membuatkan hati itu begerak. Dengan izinNya, semua bisa terjadi.

And I think that's all for now. Maybe macam tergantung tapi tu je lah yang aku mampu tulis setakat ni. Assalamualaikum.

The Eternal Happiness Can Never be Found in Any Falsehood

"Have faith, my dear heart. Have faith in Allah, for only He can fill the void in my heart. Only He can make my heart soft and grant me the strength to go through life, one day at a time."

People and Feelings. Sucks right.

I don't know. Maybe I just changed to someone who I could never thought of before. It all happened so fast. The ups and downs. They tore me apart, they put me back. They let me down, they lift me up. Everything keeps changing.

One thing for sure, when we grow up, it is a lie if we don't feel it and it is a norm for us to have that feeling, you know that love thingy. It's good actually, it shows that you're normal. But the matter is, how you put it (the feeling) on  a right  & suitable place.

Some might say, "I'm forever alone, no one wants me".. Maybe some might say,"Ahhh please find me one boy, I feel lonely."

But do we realize, the emptiness, the loneliness that we feel could only be filled with ibadaat towards our God, Allah SWT? 

Yes, all the temptation of this word is everywhere. When you sit down and take a look around you, you found that every one around you has boyfriend, and you're like bitching yourself right there, and cursing yourself...."WHY AM I ALONE?"

NO. You are not. Be patient. Like people always do say, "Single? Don't worry, God is writing your love story" For me, YES it is true. Be patient, the time will come, maybe you'll get someone who is nicer and can take a good care of you more than you could ever imagine.And that guy is totally much much better than the guy who you saw with your friend.

Who knows right? The most important thing is, we've got to make du'a. Always and always. Don't underestimate the power of du'a as a stone also can be soft cause of du'a. Insha Allah.

***

CRUSH. Ahahaha. Well, bohong sangat kalau dalam hidup ni, kita takda perasaan kat siapa-siapa. Like,
"Omg ths guy is something: "Awwww, he 's so soft spoken" yadda yaddaaaa...

Right? And when seeing that someone who you have crush on flirting with other people, you'll go like "WHAAAAAT? NOOOOOO!" 

Yes, I currently have crush on someone. And I do hope he'll realize, you know, like, some appreciation I guess? All the efforts that I have put should be rewarded right? I would tell you that I adore you so much but I couldn't. First. no guts. Second, I am afraid you might hate me after that.

And guess what? Bearing all these thing by ourselves, is UNBEARABLE. IT HURTS MOST OF THE TIME. AND ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW YOUR LIFE IS. 

 How to cure it? YES, by reciting Quran, pray a lot, qiyam, zikir. No joke. They HEAL!

***

Don't judge me, I am a human being. I have feelings though I once condemned that I would not fall in love with anyone. And yeah, who can make it certainly happen the exact way?

*** 

I would say that I love you one day. With all my heart. One day, once I am halal for you. Insha Allah.. Ameen.

"Menjadi Daie itu Perlu Kreatif"

Belakangan ini banyak kali sebenarnya aku rasa aku menjadi teruk. Teruk dari hari ke hari. Aku rasa aku tak layak nak menjadi daie. Dan lebih layak untuk menjadi mad'u sebenarnya. Ya, dan apabila jadi mad'u itu lebih kepada mad'u yang keras kepala. Tak mahu berubah selagi belum ada bukti yang kukuh, begitu, mungkin.

Aku datang-datang sini, first sekali yang terlintas, lebih kuranglah, aku nak cari port usrah. Mana yang patut aku nak membina diri aku. Aku cuba. Dan alhamdulillah PKPMI ada wujudkan BADAR. Dan di bawah BADAR ada usrah. Syukur aku dengar, dan aku telah mula langkah dengan beranikan diri sembang-sembang dengan orang kuat BADAR. Kak Afiqah, Kak Dini dan lain-lain.

Bersyukur Allah ketemukan mereka dengan aku. Eh, aku dengan mereka. Ah sama saja kan. Hmm. Tapi setakat ni, aku belum attend mana-mana usrah melainkan yang aku saja-saja suka buat kat kost aku duduk ni. Tapi muslim hanya ada tiga orang, yang lain semuanya India.

Hah, tunggu apa lagi kak? Da'wah la depa.. Hehe

Uish. Tak semudah tu. Aku tak dapat nak bergerak seorang diri. Aku perlukan teman. Hmm, sekarang bukan tak ada teman. Ada ja. Tapi teman yang dimaksudkan aku dan yang nak dimahukan aku tidak ada. Yang bisa aku luahkan perasaan dan betapa tandusnya hati aku dengan tarbiyah sekarang ini. 

Dan.... Ahad yang lalu. Kami dijemput oleh kakak-kakak senior FK & FKG ke Pantai Cermin. Lebih kepada rehlah. Rehlah bebas kata mereka. Tapi aku 'syak' dari awal dah ni macam teknik nak tarik mad'u ni. Sengaja aku tanya kak Tini ketika di sana. 

"Kak, rehlah ini under BADAR ke sebenarnya? Hehe."

Kak Tini macam nak tak nak bagitau ja. Tapi aku rasa aku perlu beritahu terus terang yang aku tak nak diapproach perlahan-lahan, aku nak attend usrah terus. Kak Tini ketawa kecil. 

"Hehe ya. Adik jangan beritahu siapa-siapa ya. Ni cara nak tarik adik-adik junior join usrah. Akak taknak diorang terkejut."

"Wah baguslah kak, ini cara yang bijak nak tarik mad'u. Suka suka suka."

Memang tak nampak secara jelas bahawa kakak-kakak nak tarik mereka masuk usrah tapi aku dapat rasa. Ini memang cara yang patut dipuji. Kita kenal rapat-rapat dan main-main dulu, dan pada masa yang sama kita perlaha-lahan tarik.

Tapi aku tak. Aku tak perlu kepada pengenalan sudah. Aku perlu kepada level yang lebih lagi. Sudah lama aku tak berkongsi dalam usrah. Ahhh. Kosong benar sekarang ini. 

"Kak, takde ke usrah yang boleh tasha join. Tasha dah lama rasa kosong ni."

"Ada dik, hehe. Adik nak join? Wah. Boleh boleh. Selalu ada. Nanti kak bagitau adik eh."

Ahh. Nanti tu yang aku nak dengar sangat. Dah lama aku tunggu ni...  

****

Pulang dari Pantai Cermin, aku sudah tahu twithandle Kak Tini, terus aku tak berlengah follow kak Tini di Twitter. Hehe. Misi tercapai. Terisi juga jiwa aku. Mengenali senior yang sehaluan. Ada Twitter, dan rajin tweet untuk makanan jiwa. Terima kasih Allah.

Semalam aku tweet perasaan aku. Aku luahkan yang aku rasa macam tak cukup ja dengan apa yang telah aku kongsikan selama ini di bumi Al-Irshad. Dan aku agak dah, Kak Tini akn perasan tweet aku. Dan aku suka hhehe. 

Aku sebenarnya banyak kali terkesima dengan beberapa orang junior. Hmm. Tweet mereka tak habis-habis dengan cinta. Aku okay ja kalau sekali sekala. Ni tak. Kerap sangat dan memang tak membantu untuk subur rasa cinta aku kepada Allah & Rasul. Dan ada di antara mereka yang aku unfollow. Tweets depa menyakitkan mata aku.

Tapi aku terfikir banyak kali juga. Kenapa perlu aku buat macam tu? Bukan kah mereka ni mad'u aku? Tak perlu rasanya aku nak berputus asa dengan mereka. Padahal baru sikit sahaja. Dan acap kali juga aku terasa hati dengan mereka. Banyak kali mereka online, banyak kali aku lihat tweet mereka menjelma di timeline aku, tapi tiada siapa pun mahu tegur aku. Hmmmm. Mungkin salah aku juga sebab tak keep in touch. 

Ya, aku akur. Aku expect mereka untuk sedar, tapi usaha daripada aku tidak ada. Masakan boleh ada hasilnya. Mulai hari ini aku perlu keep in touch dengan mad'u aku! YAY! Insha Allah.

Moga kita semua teguh di jalan ini. Ya, aku dan kalian. Ameen.

 

Battle of the Nafs

Insecurities are everywhere. Everywhere.

It is such a lie when a girl seeing other girls who are better than herself not feeling anything. She must feel something inside that tells her, " Why aren't you as good as her?" "Why aren't you wearing like her?" "Why aren't you as beautiful as her?"

I, frankly speaking, as girl, admit that I feel the same way too. Seeing someone who is better than myself in everything that she does. Seeing someone who is better than myself in covering aurah. Seeing someone who gets the chance to be someone in tarbiyah & da'wah.

Who says that I'm not trying? I'm trying and struggling to ensure myself staying steadfast on this journey. It is not that easy.

"It is not that complicated actually though. You've just got to surrender your heart to Allah, and let Him take a good care."

Yes. I do admit this. This this this.

 "Well, it is a good thing for you actually, to feel that way. Without realizing it, you are just getting better"

But till when do I need to feel this way? I'm just tired to keep holding on.

 "Be patient. La takhaf wa la tahzan. Innallah ma'ana"

"This world is a struggle. Jannah is the award for those who struggle in this Dunya. The sweetness of Jannah.. imagine it"

 I need someone who gets me. That would be interesting.

And the battle continues..

Pictures of PLKN of mine :)

aku dulu, kompeni Charlie , keseluruhan number dua, satu dapat kat Delta, beza tiga markah jaa, hehe

so , aku ni kem PLKN Sintok, dalam kampus UUM

Ramai budak SBP and sekolah agama kat kem aku ni. Alhamdulillah.

Charlie diterajui oleh Faiz Hassan , ex- SBPI Kubang Pasu. Salute beliau, orang yang banyak ilmu, dan pandai mengetuai kompeni. Respek beliau

berkat kesabaran di sana. -pelatih terbaik plkn kem sintok :)

faiz hassan.

best friends kat plkn . missing them :')

banyak lagi pics, dikompailkan dalam CD yang mana aku tak bawak mai kolej, 

seriusli, PLKN ada lah hikmah terbesar aku dalam hidup. Sangat bersyukur dapat.

Yang penting , jangan berhenti mengharap. Allah sentiasa ada untuk membantu walaupun ketika itu, kita terpakda lawan arus. BERTAHAN dan akhirnya kita akan nikmati nikmat yang diredhai. Jangan lawan arahan Dia sudah :)

Amalkan, 

Allahumma la sahla illa ma ja'altahu sahla, wa anta taj'alu hazna iza shi'ta sahla ~ :)

Dapat PLKN? JANGAN RISAU - some advices from ex- plknian :) #1

Salamullahialaikum and hi everyone. Moga rahmat Allah sentiasa bersama kita.

So yeah,  I just know that the trainees for 2012 session will start going next Monday. Dah hampir setahun la maksudnya aku pi PLKN ni. Masha Allah, sat nya masa berlalu.

I was thinking before to update my blog about some of my thinking on PLKN. Tapi, sibuk teramat sangat dekat Matrikulasi ni. Semester Dua penuh dengan esainmen yang berbagai -__- penat sangat sangat sangat teramat.

dan juga bermacam masalah melanda. Ujian itu ini, Begitu , begini.

" Laa yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus'aha " 

SO okay, lets cut it and start the REAL topic of this post

SEBELUM PI PLKN DULU..

cuak teramat-amat. You know, sebelum ni dok dalam pagaq sekolah ja, dalam asrama pulak. Hidup bersosial pun dengan sama sendiri ja lah. SPM SPM SPM , BUKU BUKU BUKU, KERTAS KERTAS KERTAS. 

Masa dapat tau dapat PLKN, menangis teresak -esak. Because I DONT WANNA GO! Dengaq segala bagai cerita orang,

PLKN teruk,

pakai baju hangat,

campuq laki perempuan lah

kena tuck in tudung dan baju

kena pakai baju yang depa bagi

sosial gila~~

SO yeah, my dad sangat menggalakkan aku untuk pergi , cause he said, its time for me to stay outside the box. Dah LIMA tahun  kat Bumi Irshad, dengan didikan agama dan segalanya untuk lengkapkan diri. So it s the time to bertebaran .

My mum was worried extremely, boleh ka aku ni survive, cause I was not that type - u knw, social life nowadays. And , sekolah agama mana ada kaum lain , dan agama lain selain Melayu dan Islam ~

dan aku pulak, berbahagi diri, patut ke aku pi? atau larikan diri?

amek STAM ? 

amek sijil apa?

and orang buat lawak,,,, kahwin 

Sebelum pi, memang macam macam persiapan aku buat, baca buku itu dan ini. Get myself prepared untuk kot2 la ada orang ajukan soalan ini dan itu. Ya lah, I'm a muslim. Lots of questions akan orang tanya.

aku belajaq sikit2 mandarin kat youtube :) syok syok syok. And i searched some tips on PLKN kat google. ada la yang membantu.

ANA BERSYUKUR TAK TERHINGGA DAPAT JOIN HIMEGA! (maafkan dengan caps lock, teruja sangat)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,
Salamullahialaikum warahmatullahiwabarakatuh ,

Baiklah, ana baru pulang dari Kem HIMEGA anjuran Haluan Siswa di UIA bermula dari 22-24 April bertempat di Main Auditorium KAED (laaaaaa, semuanya dah tertera di atas ni , buang karen kot tulis) 

Hhhee, maafkan ana, rasa macam dah tak reti nak buat opening untuk post guane dah, otak penulis lama tak perah. Asyik dok peram, buka laptop tau nak Facebook ja (astaghfirullah) . Ala Kulli hal, lepas balik balik dari himega tersaa hamasah semacam , walaupun hanya TIGA HARI DUA MALAM, rasa pengalaman macam TIGA BULAN , lebih terkesan dari PLKN ana rasa :) hehhhe~

Yang paling ketara , kem ini sangat mementingkan iktilat antara brothers and sisters, *gelaran untuk kami* , kumpulan kumpulan tak bercampur dengan brothers, fuhh lega~ kurang maksiat dan dosa kering.

Jadi, ana rasa nak kongsi sikit2 yang mana penting laah, terutamanya, slot2 yang disajikan, sebab kalau tulis panjang2 kome malaih nak bacenye pulok, sian teman :) haha

Biasalah, mula2 ada ta'aruf,  kumpulan ana dapat fasi yang sangat ana kagum iaitu sister Siti Atiqah Binti Ismail

rasa macam nak biarkan gambar ceritakan segalanya ~ :)

semasa ta'aruf, ketika ni tak bahagi kumpulan g, tapi ana tau dia bakal faci ana :) yeahhhhhh

memang kagum dengan beliau, sangat bijaksana dalam berkata-kata 

kumpulan ana lepas ta'aruf dan tazkirah di Masjid UIA , sempat juga kami baca Al-Ma'thurat dan Doa Rabitah Hati.

Jadi, usai solat isya' jemaah , kami semua bergegas pula ke Main Audi KAED untuk SLOT 1, Perasmian Pembukaan 'Alim Mujahid'

haaa
meh nengok video ni~

Jadi, program untuk hari itu, tamat dalam pukul 11.30 malam, haaaaaaaaaaa, kena berjalan dari KAED ke Mahallah, memang aktivii 'fizikal' yang cergas! seronok~ :)

Hari Kedua pula, pengisian yang pelbagai, SLOT 2 : 'Jiddiyah dan Iltizam' oleh Ustaz Noorkhairan bin Nordin.

 kita mesti cemerlang 2-2, akademik n tarbiyah. dah masuk U nnt, jgn lupa join program2 tarbiyah..

kata ustaz lagi,

Islam adalah sesuatu yang hebat, memerlukan karakter yang hebat

Memang terasa 'tertampar' dan perlu akan jiddiyah dan iltizam dalam mengorak langkah di IPT nanti! "kita bukan bawa imej kita sahaja, tapi imej islam itu sendiri T_T"

kata ustaz lagi, 

Bekerjalah kerana Allah Taala. milikah semangat yang tinggi dan berpegang teguhlah pada janji Allah

in the surau Mahallah Maryam :) sangat selesa

oh , sebelum tu, pagi tu selepas subuh ada, tazkirah subuh, kak ni ya ALLAH, sister ni nama ana terlupa~ ishhh, sister ni cerita mengenai srikandi islam yang ada senama dengan nya , atau lebih dikenali sebagai Ummu Sulaim, sangat berjiwa kental dan berani dalam menegakkan Islam, (banding dengan diri ana yang sangat kerdil, nak tahajud pun T_T)

okay, sambung balik,slot 3; mahasiswa mukmin cemerlang, oleh Dr. Noraini Ismail~


sangat impresss dengan beliau, kagum tahap synttax error,

kamera handset tak bisa nak fokus dekat2 harap maklum -.- v

 ‎"mukmin yg berjaya adalah mukmin yg berjaya menemui jalan pulang. pulang ke syurga, asalnya sendiri dr syurga "

 ohh yaa, sebelum memulakan aktiviti kami, pasti kami akan 'praise and worship' the One and Only , Allah by reciting the Asma' Ul Husna 

dan juga lagu tema kami ini!~

haaaaa, semasa SLOT FUTURE JOB PROSPECT, ADALAH dibahagikan kepada beberapa 'booth' mengikut kerjaya apa kita nak pada masa depan nanti, instead of going to the booths, sebab ramai gile ana sembanga ngn kak faci ana, BANYAK SANGAT INPUT ohhh~ :)

terima kasih kak, kak tolong ana banyak sangat :') moga ukhwah fillah ila jannah 

semasa itu juga, ana baru tahu, yang kak tiqah, just one year older than me, sukar nak dipercayai!! ! matang gile kotttttt

Keesokannya, slot 7; forum mahasiswa, terdiri daripada penalis2 yang hebat Bro. Mohd Zamri, Bro. Mohd. Imran, Sis Nazihah dan Sis Zakirah

pengalaman mereka masing- masing dalam memegang janji sebagai Alim Mujahid , begitu membuatkan ana rasa berkobar kobar mengikut jejak mereka, walau di usia muda, pemikiran mereka sangat ke hadapan!

wahhhh

SLOT 8; 'akademik dan dinamik' gempak habisss aaa

masha ALLAH :) daripada ustaz Azizan 

Mana kita pergi, Islam di hati, hanya Allah tujuan

dan bawah ni, some of the videos yang digabung jadi satu video untuk penutup, tapi tak dapat cari kat utube, huhuhhuhu.

eh333, ada laaaa



baiklah, panjang post ana, takat ini ja laah ana mampu ~ :) ilalliqa' !

ISLAM is the BEST

Salamullahialaikum, i've found this video on youtube. He reverted to Islam after being a christian. In a nut shell, (teringat masa PMR dulu, sokmo je guna phrase ni) XD this man said, he didn't know much his religion which was Christian, then he read the Holy Bible, and he was horrified to find lots of things that belied his faith.

Okay laa, hampa dengaq laaa this man cakap, hampa dengaq saya cakap, hampa pening,

moral of the story- innaddina 'indallahil islam =)

syukran ,

GRAduasi dan GRRR , *tak2, saja ja tu*

Salam alaik 

dan

Salam Satu Malaysia ~

(Malaysia Boleh)

Ya! Anda memang bersifat kewarganegaraan -__-

Saya sangat bangga ada pengikut seperti anda.

Pengikut?

PENGIKUT??

menakutkan ja, 

macam ajarat tersesat pula,

Nauzubillah. Mintak simpang-lah

Maka, pada hari ini, saya berasa bangga-lah *bukan banla, baca betul2

dan berbesar hati yang teramatlah sangat

malah dengan rasa penuh kesyukuran *laa, ingat kan tak reti bersyukur*

mengumumkan pada 26 MAC 2011

adalah ..........

I AM HAPPY TO BE SIXTENS AL-IRSHAD !

Salamullahialaikum and............ SALAM SATU MALAYSIA !

A quick post but the proudest one *apa punya ayat laa

I am HAPPY, DELIGHTED, JUBILANT, OVERWHELMED, *okay stop the caps lock and all the thesaurus bla bla * er Sorry2 .

WHY ? LIMAZA ? KENAPA?  haha * oi, make it quick laa*

Read my beloved sir's status :)

SALAM.. THE FIFTH FORMERS OF 2010 HAD 

PRODUCED THE BEST SPM RESULTS OF 2.09 GPMP. 

FOR ENGLISH LANGUAGE, IT IS 1.82 GPMP (2009- 

1.97, 2008-1.97) AND GCE 'O' - 3.72 GPMP (THE BEST 

EVER RESULT!!). CONGRATULATIONS GUYS, I AM 

PROUD TO BE UR TEACHER...

I was like, "WHAT ?" ehh, tak patut tak patut. sepatutnya, Alhamdulillah, praise to ONE AND ONLY, ALLAH for His Blessings. Capai juga hasrat SixTens nak membanggakan cikgu-cikgu, warga-wargawati *ada ka? * SMKA Al-Irshad . terutamanya PUAN HAJAH SALMAH BINTI ISHAK, yang telah pun meninggalkan kami , maksud saya, sekolah ini untuk menyambung perjuangan beliau di SMKA KEDAH.

SYUKRAN jazilan untuk semua guru yang berhempas pulas, membanting tulang membajak sawah ilmu untuk murid-murid Irshad SixTens sehingga dapat kami naik jentolak mengambil hasil padi *serius tk tau proses padi* haah


IZan, this is SIXTENS :)

BEST EVER :)

okay, tak nampak, jangan cari saya, tapi nak cari okay gak. tabik hormat kehadapan hormat kepada anda kalau jumpa saya di dalam gambar ini . *kecuali anda lihat di FB , pasti nampak*

itu sahaja rasanya buat kali ini, saya semacam banyak nak tulis tapi wo hen lei. +.+ saya sebenarnya dipaksaaaaaaaaaaa oleh anak encik suraini. HAHA

ilalliqa' ma'assalamah :)

Percaya atau tidak, INSHA ALLAH dalam Bahasa Melayu

Salamullahialaikum,

so, any ideas on what I'm going to talk about Maher Zain this time?

Maher Zain comes to Penang ?

Maher Zain   produces a  new album?

or, Maher Zain's song now in Malay? 

yaaa !! way to go, guys! Now, you can listen Maher Zain's Insha ALLAH in Malay. Initially, I was a little bit unbelieved as there are so many covers on Maher Zain's Insha ALLAH in Malay on Youtube. But, I forced myself to click on the video with my ears closed. Bukan paa, takut keluar suara Mehar Zian pulak. Yalah, kan banyak video tak torah kat Youtube.

So, walaupun dengan telinga katup, my ears catched the beats of the nasyid, ANNNNNDDDD , it's true . It's MAHER ZAIN's INSHA ALLAH in MALAY. official=) ohhh

I'm happy. I jumped to the sky, that's why my roof is under construction,

okay, here's his nasyid in Malay. Suddenly, I'm PROUD to be MALAYSIAN 

xd 

thaib, ilalliqa' 

p.s- saya rasa lebih hayati dengan lirik melayu ini, T_T ohhh

p.s II - am I the last person on the earth know about this? hahaha, gara-gara 1 bulan di sana. ooops

SAYA pun tak pasti nak bubuh tajuk apa, sebab tak tahu tu yang saya tulis ini.

Salamullahialaikum

Pecah rekod juga saya hari ini, dua post satu hari,

hek elh, bajet la kau ni, dua post satu hari pun pecah rekod ke? 


Bajet tak bajet, kau nak bajet, pergi join Bajet 2011 dengan Datuk Seri. Kat sini bukan Dewan Parlimen.

Ekhemm, harap maklum, Berlaku sedikit monolg dalaman yang tak dapat nak elak. Baik kita sambung diskusi kita. APA PERASAAN ANDA MELIHAT GAMBAR DI ATAS? err,mungkin tak cukup besar ini tulisan.

APA PERASAAN ANDA MELIHAT GAMBAR DI ATAS?

tekan bawah ini, jika anda mahu hidup . fuhh, ada ke patut? alah, tekan je laaaa, penat saya tulis kott

Melts my heart . tranquilize -_-

credits to rindu.org 

this one is not mine, but i do love this one :)

Salamullahialaikum

Subhanallah , it is very healing :)
CLICK IT, if not ...... -_-"

p.s// I don't know why I cannot put the Youtube video here. I think there's something wrong with this new layout's setting, erhh. Hurt **

More Advices on PLKN to me :)

Dear sister,

1. Sederhana dalam semua perkara, tidak lebih, tidak kurang - wasatiah
2. Berterusan - istiqamah
3. Usaha, jangan putus asa
4. Berserah kepadaNYA setelah berusaha - Tawakkal
5. BE yourself !

May this one helps you, 

salam alaik :)

PLKN; The Dilemma of Muslimah, and How to Overcome It?

Salamullahialaikum

The days keep declining, the time fades so fast and my adrenaline beating fast and fast. 

I'm afraid to face the world there, yeah a very different world. I keep praying to Him so that I could be righteous.

These could be some words that indicate the riot of most muslimah out there, who are selected to join the NATIONAL SERVICE (Program Latihan Khidmat Negara 2011/1) including me.

So, yeap. I am lying if I say that I don't have any problems in facing the days. Some questions keep knocking my head,

"Should I wear tudung pendek or tudung labuh?"


"Is it okay for me to tuck in the uniform, if I don't what will happen?"

"Can I run away form this programme, it makes me sick !"

"Ohhh, I just can't do this!"

Hey, Sakeenah! Calm down, there must be something exists behind this test, you just need to stand still and be just the WAY you are.

So, I pray to ALLAH, pray and pray.

Then He shows me the way, I found an article on iluvislam, and I think it is worth to be shared here,

So, this is it.

Muslimah vs PLKN

Panjangnya pengenalan, padahal nak post link ja.  Takkan nak online penat2 , then just simply post the link and go.

^^ Subhanallah, praise to ALLAH, now I feel revived!

Some of Muslimah Just Don't Know

click to zooom it 

Salamullahialaikum,

this isn't my first drawing,

I will upload more

InshaALLAH

Spread it okay ? :)

Wa ilalliqa'

It has ended !

Salamullahialaikum warahmatullah :)

Dah lama tak post, rasa kekok sangat. Idea-idea IDEA IDEA. idea-idea, ideaidea. Bila tak buka blog, banyak la idea. Grrrr, apa lah.

Ohh ya, SPM has endedd ! !





Takbir !
*sambut lah anda sebelum anda disambutkan* -.-v

Guess what, i have done so many things since it ended.

#1 : Back to Seremban
Well, it's not my hometown. I have a sister here. She's going to transfer to Shah Alam end of this month. So as the most intelligent, diligent, courageous young sister, i have to sacrifice all my desire (to get license, video making with Syaza, outing with friends and bla-bla-bla) for a while. Berbakti selagi ada.

#2:  Baby sit and nanny sit
Yeah, as i mentioned before, i'm in seremban, taking care of my nephews and my grandma is my part-time job. Pray for my 'mak's' health. she's EIGHTY right now and still alive and kicking. Insha ALLAH. cuma ada laa sakit sikit2. A norm for the oldies. -.- May ALLAH bless her as she had taken care of me when i was young :)

#3: Video making
Haaa, this one has been in my dream list since  i made a utube account. i know i could not be like Conor Maynard or even Sam Tsui to cover the songs ,but  i still want to contribute stg, in utube wolrd . LOL, promoting conor, i guesssss . So, to be simplified, i made one *successfully* a video, a lyric video. Just wait for the correct time to post it on utube . As, the wi-fi here is d*mn low. Durr.

#4: Novels
At lasst, i could go to the bookstores with my mind freee of wondering about all the syllabus. HAHA. I grabbed one novel. Kalau ikut hati, nak ambil SEMUA ! yeah, ALL. but, i still can think rationally.

WEIL CHINA. A story about the life of a real mujaheed in Turkistan, to struggle out from the communist. Yah, great story. Luvin' it. It's written by Emine or known as Aminah. She's from Turkey and it was translated by a local novelist :) Hehh, i'll share after finishing it . iALLAH

#5: Trying to be one of the huffaz Al-Quran
Guys, we have to balance the world's stuff and hereafter's. As I'm not taking DQ , Darul Quran, i think i need to work it out by myself. For this matter, i try to follow Muhammad Taha Al-Junaid's style of recitation. He's a VERY EXCELLENT reciter ! He's SIXTEEN.
Moga dia terus tsabit dalam perjuangannya. Ameeen

taha al-junaid

I just could do all of these things for a short period only. yaah, PLKN Program Latihan Khidmat Negara or is known as in English as National Service. LOL *fyi* -.-

THREE MONTHS !

I'm just hoping to Allah that me and all of my friends could be the best :) May Allah guide us . -.-

Wailalliqa' maasaalamah

Mujahidah Sejati

Mujahidah sejati

Akhirat utama kerana dunia bukan pilihannya
Mujahidah sejati
Hatinya berbeza kerana diasuh iman dan taqwa

Mujahidah sejati
Berbekal Al-Quran dan Al-Sunnah
Bersulam pengorbanan
Bisa menggegarkan isi dunia

Mujahidah sejati
Terus subur mekar mewangi
Seindah suria menerangi bumi
Harapan ummah yang abadi

Mujahidah sejati
Menyoroti langkah Khadijah, Aisyah, Fatimah
Menjadi muqorrobin, bermujahadah
Menuju cinta dan kasih Allah

Paras rupa bukannya ukuran
Nilainya sama di sisi Tuhan
Cuma ibadah yang membezakan
Wanita solehah di sisi Tuhan

Berhati-hatilah hasutan dunia
Kerana ia merbahaya
Jangan dibiarkan ia bertakhta
Dalam diri dengan dosa-dosa